no good deed gos unpunished

I GUESS IT IS NOW SAFE TO SAY MY LIFE HAS GONE TO SHIT. THE REASON I SAY THINGS LIKE THIS IS BECAUSE THEY ARE TRUE. I GUESS IT IS JUST THE WAY THINGS ARE SAPOSED TO HAPPEN FOR ME. I MEAN IN TWO WEEKS I HAVE LOST MY BOYFRIEND, A LOVER AND A VERY GOOD FRIEND OF MINE.
I THINK IT MIGHT NOT BE SO BAD THAT ME AND MIKEY BROKE UP CONSIDERING WE DID FIGHT ALL THE TIME. I DO THINK THAT ONE IS FOR THE BETTER. THATS WHY THAT ISN'T MY PROBLEM. NOT REALY AT ALL. ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS JUST CAME OUT AND TOLD ME HE LOVES ME. HE FUCKING LOVES ME. HOW FUCKING STUPID IS THIS KID I ASK??? WHO IN THERE RIGHT FUCKING MIND WOULD LOVE ME??? NOONE THATS WHO....NOONE. I DON'T TAL;K TO HIM NOW. HE IS JUST ANOTHER DUMB ASS KID WHO JUST CAME OUT THAT RUNS TO THE FIRST LITTLE VULNERABLE FAG THEY CAN FIND. I WISH I COULD DIE.
THE LAST THING IS THE GUY IVE BEEN FUCKIN FOR THE PAST TWO WEEKS WON'T EVEN SAY A FUCKING WORD TO ME NOW. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT??? WHEN THE FUCK DID I TURN INTO A WHORE??? I GUESS IT WAS MENT TO HAPPEN. IT IS SAPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS I GUESS. I KNOW WHY I AM LIKE THIS AND IT IS BECAUSE ONE MAN. ONE MAN WHO CHANGED MY VIEWS ON EVERYTHING. HE TURNED ME INTO THE BITTER LITTLE QUEEN I AM TODAY. WELL GOTTA GO AND TRY TO FIND THE GUY FOR TONIGHT. LOVE AND KISS. MUHA.